Posts Tagged ‘experience’

White Boy Special

Posted: July 22, 2011 in Alpha, Game, Personal Experience
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have you ever found yourself in a place so different from any place you’ve experience before? This is one of those places.

“Dude it will be unlike anything youve experienced before!” he said. My friend was trying to convince me to join him at a dance party taking place out at a secluded beach bar club out by the airport. And we all know nothing lives out by barren waste land airports.

“Alright I’ll go.” I gave in. “Trust me dude you’re gonna love it.” He reassured me.

We arrived around 12:30 and the place was still wasn’t popping; i was having doubts. The place was made up of crusty old men, ugly woman and guys who look like they would take your wallet as soon as they see it. After a few drinks the place started to get interesting. The DJ wasnt the best but the girls were getting warmed up. It was around this time that i said “fuck it. I’m gonna have a good time.” Finally a good DJ came on and all hell broke loose.

I dont know how much North Americans know about Whining, grinding and daggering but there was some serious dancing going on up in this place. The music is so loud everything vibrates, including your clothes. your ears hum from the constant assault of deafing music. Now I know why it’s out by the airport.

By 1am I was loving this place. Most guys just sat around looking rough and maybe slightly bobbing their heads. Not us, we were getting in with the girls. In a place like this you don’t even have to talk to the girls. All you do is go up behind them for a second, grab their waist and put them against you. Sit back and enjoy the ride.

Girls were crazy to say the least. It was a remind white girls can’t move their ass for shit and black girls work it like they’re waxing the hood of a car. My friend and I had these two girls on us when he yells in my ear,  “Dude!!! Your the only white guy in this whole place! Your the fucking guy!” For the rest of the night I tried finding another white guy just to say I wasn’t the only one… But I was. I stood out like a confident swore white thumb. I’ve been in the minority plenty of times but not when its 300 people and you. I’m not complaining, I had a blast!

Number closing in a place where you cant even hear yourself think is impossible. But holy hell it was good time and a hell of an experience.

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If anyone ever told you it would be easy, they lied…

A few weeks ago I to signed up for a volleyball tournament. I thought, “what the hell right. It’s just for fun.” so I signed up as an individual and would be set on a team with other individuals.

I should have known it was gonna be a rough day when Lady Gaga is playing at 9am. One of the risks signing up as an individual is when your put on a team with people who practice with the national team and people in the most competitive league(I’m in the least competitive).

To put it simply, I sucked. When I wasn’t serving the ball way into the next court I was usually missing my shots. My team won only one game through the tournament.

On my Volleyball team I play with on a regular I’m the worst guy player. The first week I wasn’t too bad, now a bunch of new guys joined and I’m back to the bottom.

If you took me from pre-Christmas I would have probably left that tournament and my team feeling super shitty and probably never played again. “Fuck this stupid game. I suck and was probably the worst player out there. Peace out!”

Not now. After starting Salsa dancing I learned something very important. “it’s gonna suck a long time. You have to push through the sucky part to get to the good part. “Most people quit right when things get hard and right before things get good.”
That’s what I was told before I started. And by the time I reached the end of my second set of classes I was the only student left in the class. Now I’m in a new class and I’m back to being the worst student in the place.

“90% of being good at anything is just showing up.” some are gifted but some nothing is special about them they’ve just worked harder then everyone else and stuck with it when everyone else didn’t.

What most people don’t realize is how important the mental shift is. I’m not really bothered by most people, or how they have big plans. I know 95% of people are too lazy or aren’t committed enough to follow through. Most are gonna quit and drop out.

I have friends who have great ideas that could be quite powerful and make them really happy in life. But unless they make big chances they’ll never go anywhere with those ideas. what a loss.

This change in thought also changes Game. Win, lose or fail what counts is you showed up and tried. Don’t make doing or trying something contingent on the outcome. If you want to do something just do it. It doesn’t matter what happens after that because you tried.

I may suck at getting chicks. I’ve have been stood up and flaked on by the last 15 girls I’ve asked out. But I can’t quit now. Roosh says it takes about 4 years of sucking at something and about 8 to 10 years before your good at something. I’m at the bottom of my sports team, my salsa class, and still the smallest guy at the gym. Think I’m gonna quit?… FUCK NO! I’m in it till it’s over.

Alpha Ethos: “The Beta male is governed by his circumstances and outcome. Win,lose, fail or succeed the Alpha Male doesn’t let outcome change who he or what he wants.”

Guess who got laid… Thats right. This guy!

Thursday night I took out my blind date for a second date. I took her on a little adventure going to several different venues. Dessert and drinks location #1: $30, drinks at location #2: $20, milkshake at location #3: $10, getting laid… PRICELESS.

As that I don’t have my own place I’m limited to where I could take her. So I drove us to what I thought would be a quiet destination. But as luck would have it a car drove by, and stopped. I dropped the condom I was about to tear open and I hopped out of the car with nothing but my pants on. Apparently we were about to romp on someones property. This is the second time I’ve been with a girl in my car and someone has pulled up; at least this time it wasn’t the police. So we moved to the darkest spot of her parent’s drive way.
By this time I was well-worn out from a long day and 3 destinations (not including some dude’s property). I could have done better… but I chose not to.

To no surprise sex complicates things. The problem is that if all goes as planned I’ll be going out with a friend of mine soon after she gets back (Knock on wood). Do I dump blink date now or do I keep her around to see what happens? My options in how I would dump her is even limited; I can’t let my friend who set us up get a shit storm from her.

Is Bad sex better than no sex at all?

On another note…
I was declined from my surefire university of choice. So right now I’m saying to myself “Oh shit.” Because unless I’m extremely lucky I’m going to be stuck for another year in the cubicle farm.
So what then? Do I spend another year slowly killing myself slowly for a four year tunnel dream? Then what? Rejoin the cubicle farm to pay off my golden years?

Right now, 1 hour after this saddest of news I’m thinking of moving. Start fresh somewhere else with $24,000. In my head moving to some surf-all-day country sounds really awesome but what would that look like in 20 years? To be quite honest I’m scared shitless.
I realize modern western world society has programmed us to believe university  is the end all and be all. But what better options are there?

I was feeling grouchy and upset about a situation with a girl which wasn’t going how I’d hoped. I’ve invested a significant amount of time on her and I’m ready for my pay off. So for the first time in over a month I had a BBM(blackberry messenger) status.

It was, super beta but I felt like my long commitment to Alphadom deserved a break. I deserved my turn to complain and moan about my sad situation.

But no beta deed goes unpunished. Within seconds, and I mean seconds I got a message from a girl I had once tried making something with. She’s a classic attention whore who won’t let you get away with anything Beta. Bring out your arsenal of negs because you’re gonna have to unload the whole clip.

All she said was: “That is the gayest status ever.” Ok, so she was right. But I was feeling pretty shitty and I was just starting my turn on the Beta-merry-go-round. I hadn’t even had time to enjoy it! So in classic beta fashion I erased my status and used it as a good excuse to delete her.

Looking back, both acts were something an Alpha would never even think of. The beta status was a revisit to my hyperactive status updating days. Deleting her was me being a bitch cause I couldn’t take the heat.

Being Alpha isn’t something I can put on in the morning and take off at night. It Must become you. It’s not a change in who you are, just drastic change in presentation. So like I said in the title, not beta act goes unpunished. Don’t make the same mistake I did.